I first read this quote by Kristin Von Ogtrop on the editor's page of Real Simple. Later she included it in her book, Just Let Me Lie Down. Truth is, she had me as soon as she titled her original piece Can I Call You Back in 15 Years?If I refuse to participate in girls’ nights out now, who will go to lunch with me when I’m 80?
I may not be a mother of three, wife and editor of a successful national magazine, but I do know a little about juggling, prioritizing and finding it impossible to carve out a couple of hours each month to spend with my closest friends.
And that worries me.
I know some really great people. They are funny, kind, understanding and we go way back. Those kind of friends don't grow on trees. I have (briefly) gotten to know people who would make wonderful new friends. The Girl Scouts really knew what they were talking about: Make new friends but keep the old. One is silver and the other is gold. I want to keep my old friends (actually, they don't look a day over 25) and I want to enjoy new friendships. I miss grown-ups. I miss laughing, talking and dreaming. I miss sharing passages from books and new restaurants.
Working full-time and being the sole parent of two young children makes it impossible to do more than send an occasional e-mail or leave a two minute message on voicemail. Five days a week I am caught up in three schools' worth of tasks--packing and unpacking bags, making lunches, washing uniforms, searching for library books and signing permission forms. Saturday is spent shuttling between swim lessons and art class--each located two counties from the other. Although we're home by 3, the boys are tired by then and just want to lay on the sofa watching a dvd. I can't just leave them there and run off to a chick flick with a friend or two.
Speaking of which, I haven't been in a movie theater since December of 2006. I wonder how much a ticket costs these days....oh, don't tell me--it will probably be well over ten years before I can see another first-run movie. In 2025, will anyone still have my phone number? Will anyone remember what makes me laugh and what makes me cry? Will I?
It's not that I'm lonely. Life is too hectic. One can't be lonely inside a tornado--there isn't time or space. The thing is, I have to be home with the boys now. I don't have extra cash or free time to hire a babysitter. But one day Henry and Liam will leave me. My biggest fear is that on that day, I'll pick up the phone to call a friend for lunch and they won't answer. Why would they? They've spend 15 years making other plans.
Very thought provoking post. If you think of you & I as new friends now, then 15 years from now we'll be old friends & I'll answer your call.
ReplyDeleteThanks Tiara--then we can share stories about college visits and empty nests!
DeleteSo glad that extremely rude comment was removed. Hope you got my vm!!!
DeleteLara and Tiara, can I play too in fifteen years?
ReplyDeleteI understand completely what you are saying but I think its good to go out with adults once in a while to decompress.
ReplyDeleteThis post really speaks to me - I don't really miss one on one time with my friends....but if I don't make time for it now, where will my friends be when I do miss them?
ReplyDeleteThanks for making me think! :)
If I was there, I'd grab a bottle of wine and come over to see you on a Saturday night with a DVD and wouldn't even mind if you fell asleep :)
ReplyDeleteI disagree. You CAN be lonely inside a tornado. And I totally get that. I do find myself making efforts to invite my mommy friends over with their kids because I am lonely and I want to maintain those friendships and it's less work to have them over. Try inviting a mom or two over for a potluck with their kids... open a bottle of wine and talk in the kitchen while the kids destroy the rest of the house. The other moms will appreciate not having to cook or clean-up dinner, and you'll get to feel like an adult for a few minutes.
ReplyDeleteI was nodding my head as I read this post. Besides not having the time or extra funds, I don't want to be away from boys when I'm not working. But I get the need to do it for yourself, and in turn for them. Gets me thinking too...
ReplyDeleteI so agree with Barb's advice of inviting another mom, single mom or not, over to hang out. And maybe the two of you moms could hire someone to watch your kids together. Then you could divide the cost of the sitter, the kids would be entertained and you could sit outside and relax (well ok, you could sit outside if you lived down here, I suppose up there where it's not 90 degrees in late October you could go retreat to some corner in your house!). :)
ReplyDeleteAll I can say is that there is a time and a season for everything and I know I look back and think where has the time gone? Live and learn as they say. What you want in 15yrs will probably not be the same or maybe it will. But I know for sure that I sure hope that I will be on that speed dial list..
ReplyDeleteAs a fellow SMC, this post really resonates with me. I have lately tried to make the effort maybe once a month to get out with grownups. It's hard though. Babysitter is expensive and I don't have enough time with my daughter as it is. I am worried about completely loosing touch with my friends and like you said, who is going to call me 15 years from now when Cara is grown.
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